Mid Week Let’s get deep moment: Me, Myself, I

3 Aug

I always wondered when someone asked me, “so what do you like to do outside of work”, I was always stumped. Surely after 29 years on this earth I could think of something a little bit more interesting than…ahhh I like to shop, hang out with my friends, watch TV….have facials…(cue stereotypical stupid blonde girl laughing)

Why was I the girl without any hobbies? Sometimes it would actively worry me, that I seemed to have none, even though I was always busy.

Then when my life imploded I realised what my hobby had always been.

….Men

Deciphiring them, giving them what they want, making them happy, worrying about them, talking to my friends about them, walking on eggshells for them…blah blah….no wonder I was always so exhausted. I never had any time for me, never had made decisions just for me.

So now that I have all the time in the world, I have decided to find out who the hell I really am.

Do I have an interest in backgammon? croquet?  Sudoku? (Who the hell gets into sudoku anyway?, it’s a whole new level of wrong for me, how could anyone be bothered, and really who wants to list their interests as sudoku anyway?)

So I have started trying things, things that I have always been interested in but maybe never had the time or the money for, as I was always saving for the house, or the wedding, or the next holiday away with <insert man’s name here>

And it just so turns out, that I have lots of interests.

And I like hanging out by myself. A LOT. I think this is particularly cool. I always thought I needed a guy, but it turns out that my company is just as awesome, and I can decide to do whatever I like. So my interests have turned out to include:

  • Not exercising. I like this, I have sat in my bedroom deciding to not exercise, because I have always had someone who just so happen to think that I should be getting up at 6am to run around in circles in an attempt to whittle down my size 8 body to a more likeable 4 – 6. Nah – uh, I’m just going to sit here on my arse, eating Pringle’s because I can!
  • Not watching comedies. It turns out that I like to watch horror movies, thrillers, sci-fi’s, the home renovating channel, and just about anything else (Including antiques roadshow…I know…I know). My ability to now choose whatever it is that I would like to watch astounds me, and I’ve realised how much I have missed out on in the last few years while trying to appease a partner who was obsessed with comedies, because he was so miserable on the inside.
  • Not eating healthy food. Oh how I love travelling all over Sydney to eat some of the most decadent food available. If it is tasty, I will find you and I will eat you. And I will not feel guilty about it at all. And if I put on a kilo or two..you know what? I DON’T CARE!
  • Being Lazy. It turns out that I am really good at this. I have always been the type of person that had to ‘achieve’. Whether it was owning and running my own business at 24, while still maintaining a high pressure job, or becoming qualified in whatever it was I was interested in at the time, I’ve always had to be ‘the best’. Turns out doing nothing though, is a hobby in itself, and between you and me, learning how to be lazy without feeling guilty is a real skill.

But really, what I have found that what happens, is that when you don’t put pressure on yourself to have these ‘interests’ you actually find out that you have a lot of them.

I now have an active passion for pilates, I’ve realised that I love to eat and sometimes even get in the kitchen myself. I am addicted to my camera, and am about to start a course to study it more. I read tonnes of books, and watch loads of series and movies while curled up on the couch in my electric rug. I love getting my manicures and pedicures and facials and blow-drys on a Saturday morning, while sipping a latte and chatting on the phone to all my gorgeous friends. I plan lots of holidays and am about to jet off to Paris, Singapore and New York. I sleep in. I visit psychics. I write a blog.

I’ve realised I am a person in my own right. I have lots of interests and I have lots of facets to my character. And I won’t be boxed in again. I don’t have to worry about being that girl with no interests anymore, because really I always did have them, I just had to uncover them.

And from now on, I’ll be choosing whether I let you into my life, and not the other way around.

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5 Responses to “Mid Week Let’s get deep moment: Me, Myself, I”

  1. amyjmcintosh August 3, 2010 at 3:06 am #

    Great blog post. I think you’re one interesting cookie. I mean, the fact that you know where to get the best garlic chicken, Portugese tarts, Vietnamese Pho, Peking duck pancakes, gelato (etc.) in Sydney is pretty bloody interesting! By the way, I want an electric rug! xox

    • Miss Procrastination August 3, 2010 at 6:09 am #

      Ha Ha! Thanks Miss Aims, if I was as talented as you and could actually cook all these things then I think I could go to heaven happy 🙂 The electric rug is DIVINE, you must make a purchase!! By the way, I left the muffin you baked for me on the kitchen table and when I came downstairs my mum and brother were fighting over it because it was sooo good!! xo

  2. amyjmcintosh August 3, 2010 at 6:48 am #

    Hahahha, oh that’s so cool. Thanks! I love happy customers. 🙂

  3. Catherine August 25, 2010 at 12:03 pm #

    Love this! Also, I agree. Being lazy is an art form. Only some people can really do it well. If one more guy tells me that I should get outside and do stuff I might kill him. Who needs fresh air? Who needs activities? I have Keeping Up With The Kardashians, bad romantic comedies, my comfie pajamas, a nice apartment (that I pay way too much for, so I want to enjoy) and a blog to write. So what if I want to stay home all day?

    • Miss Procrastination August 30, 2010 at 5:33 am #

      Catherine! I know exactly what you mean, what is with these men and their fresh air?! What is it with the whole getting up at 6am to seize the day on a Saturday by starting out with a light 20km jog? Is it a high achiever thing? And can’t they do this crap with their friends? I’m on the couch watching Keeping up with the Kardashians with you! 🙂

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